My Journey

深呼吸...

2008-01-21T16:50:00.000-08:00

原来障碍不只是学习的机会, 也看到了朋友的可贵... 所有的帮忙, 鼓励, 祝福, 祈祷让我没有松懈的理由真的非常谢谢你们..!

深呼吸不是为了压抑紧张的情绪, 而是吸住感动的眼泪

Seconds before dead ...

2008-01-11T16:07:00.000-08:00

Have you ever heard of you'll see things and your love ones when you are seconds before dead? Well we dunno because we won't ask and the dead ones won't answer. But today, i'm near to death and it's not a good experience.....

3:44 - 11/1/08- Strathclyde Royal College Swimming Pool

This is a momment i'll remember for life. Felt like swimming long time ago when my winter break starts, but everyday i'll have an excuse to procrastinate. And today, at last i've take action and this is my 1st time at the pool own by my University. Been swimming since young, though stop for a long while, think i can at least go for a few laps before i'm down.. But things seems not like expected. after a few laps i felt abit shortness of breath and tired , and i thought it's normal since i've long time never swim. Continue swimming after a wee rest and in between the laps , i felt like i gone really out of breath, but i insist of finishing the lap. I started to felt abit dizzy after the lap and the shortness of breath getting more and more severe. I quickly get out from the pool and sit on the stairway. My vission started to blurred and black spot fill up my sight ( just like when you squad for quite some time and suddenly get up not giving enough time for the blood to flow) thought everyting will be back to normal after some rest, but it doesn't . I felt that my heart beat is beating at all it's strength and as fast as it could. Every breath that i take doesn't seems to reach my lung ( so this is how SOB is like, have a feel of how a patient feels, i was laughing at myself). But things get more and more serious, my vission get more and more restricted black dots everywhere and even though i'm trying to take deep and rythm breath to calm dowm myself but i cant, cause I CANT FEEL OXYGEN !!! and i'm super dizzy and nauseas. Heart beat is at it max, i'm feeling anxious, and restless, this is shock , i'm definitely suffering hypoxia ( insufficient oxygen in body), so what if i know, i cant stop it.. My friend Mr Ding who came with me sees that's there is somthing wrong with me and approached me. As an experience runner, he tell me to take deep breath, which i did but things never get better, his voice get weaker and i started to be sensitive to the sounds from my enviroment, the splasing of water from the pool, the background music ( i still can recall that it's a girl singer, thought i immagine it though). EUPHORIA.... so what if it is, i can't do a damm thing about it. "Am i going to die in this place, not at my happiest momment?" Can't really think properly, i just wanna vomit ..... continue taking deep breath consistently, doesn't get me anywhere initially, but as it goes, i started to felt the air, heart beat getting slower, and i have a feeling that i'm in control again. Vision still fill with black spot, dizzy, nauseas, but ya, i think my soul is back. Told my friend that get worried looking at me that i'm alright. Continue to sit there untill my vision get clear again.(not very clear actually, since i'm short sighted). Measured my pulse.... 80, seems normal. Comfirm with my friend again that i'm ok, and continue sitting for quite a while resting and figuring what's wrong with me. I've just been staying abit late yesterday and sitting around at home this few days, and a few laps end up hypoxia?... WTH.. Am going to come again to sort out the problem definitely...

Oh well, this make me felt like leaving a message incase of any accident unpredictably happens, that never give me a chance to leave my last words:

1) I love my mom and dad not forgetting my sis, sorry, doesn't have the chance to repay you all that would be what i regret the most.

2) Thanks to all my friend who had gone through so much with me, you guys are the best!

3)Damm myself for dying so early without achieving anything before i die and so much yet to discover and tried, not even 1 time engage with a relationship, what a disgrace...

4) Shit, havent gone to japan yet...

5)Pharmacist pharmacist sekalian please understand your patient more, not just disease based, it's different when you are suffering it.

6)Goodbye and be happy every momment, coz you wont want to drop dead crying but smilling...

...... Still figuring what's wrong with me, might be my room lack of oxygen that cause me this few days also "ngong ngong" since i spend most of my time this few days inside the room, never open my window for ages also... haha.. and this is what i found out after i open it, nice view, fresh air, heart is still beating....

Good to be alive!

Happy New Year

2008-01-04T16:41:00.001-08:00

This year has been a special new year, not only because i'm at oversea, but also because i'm working, and i'm not working alone, but with my friends at a restaurant. It's a New Year party held in a restaurant and the restaurant is actually inside a ship. We are the plate waiter there but felt more like part of the party instead. The customers are very friendly, super visor is very good, we getta eat the food prepared by the cheft , and most of all, we getta even have a drink, an alcoholic one! Who says no alcohol during work.... Got lucky, a good start for us...! Cheers!

New Year Dinner

May they'll be another awesome year ahead...! Though i'm not a candidate for Mr Universe, but i do wish for world peace and global warming can bring to an end ( If not the coolest hotel- ice hotel will be gone soon...! ). This video, The Mask is a good start for world peace.

Celebration..!

2008-01-04T12:37:00.000-08:00

Instead of Working for double pay during the christmas, a bunch of us went to london to try out our 1st oversea christmas...

London Eye - cost me 15 pound for just 30 minutes, manage to take picture and video for 29.5 minutes up there, every 1 was like taking the big ben for N times, dunno for what , and that including me....lolz

Inside london eye, notice the big ben behind, this is a HOT SPOT....!

The big ben is even nicer when it's this near

A street singer dressed like santa performing in the tube station...

"cha xiu" and roast duck rice, delicacy can be this simple.... This is what we are craving for and we eat it almost everyday during the london trip....

St. Paul Cathedral with a bunch of gangster who claimed themself as super model... Nice picture with the Christmas tree behind....

Camden market- Gone to this big version "flea" market when my other friends gone to madame tussaud's where i've been there with my mom... really alot to see and me myself doesn't even sure wethere i had already gone through every shops cause it's so big that you might get "lost" in it.... This picture shows one of the corridor selling variety of foods. If anyone wanted to get cheap food here, come near closing time when all the food vendors will start to give half prize.... Getta eat a box of sushi and a mineral water for just 3 pounds... !

Cheapest hostel that we manage to find which is near the sub... but something interesting about this hostel is it's actuarlly located infront of a cemetery. Imagine if this is a hostel at a chinese place, i think it'll close down in a few months time.... Didn't take any picture of the cemetery, am not sure what my camera capable of "taking".... And supprisingly, this is where we spend our christmas playing cards, "mafia" and instant noodles. (because there all the transportation was closed on Christmas day... ) Luckily the hostel did provide us some food which include turkey, which makes it more like a christmas...

The kitchen is so small and it's not even enough to fit just us, this is where my 1st microwave instant noodle was created (due to not enough stove for me to even prepare my instant noodle)... i'm the one back facing the camera looking at what can we do with the food that we had, notice my friend on the right who had already start eating his rice, he is the Mr "look at my face"......! Play mafia with him and he will ask you to look at his face....

That's our christmas dinner: Pizza, fish finger, instant noodle, pringles, vegetables and fanta.... Not forgetting that the hostel also provide us with some turkey.

Changing of guards, at last i getta see it , miss it during the trip to london with mom. It's boxing day morning , thought the crowd wont be that much as most of them must have be wandering around shopping mall, but it isn't as expected. Cant really get a good view of how the changing of guards is done due to the crowd but there is a series of christmas songs being played by the band after that.....

Boxing day - This is how crowded it is.

So this is how the locals here celebrate their Christmas, it seems that a multirace country like Malaysia had it own advantage as well. At least there will still be transportation and shops open during major festival, because we cover up each other's holiday....haha!

kiruna 4

2008-01-01T18:04:00.000-08:00

06:30

It's time for us to leave Kiruna, won't forget the whole new experience here. Flying Nordic air from Kiruna to Arlanda airport.....

The ground is all snowy

Last sight of Kiruna- snow over the forest....

Something welcoming us at Arlanda airport... The cheapest yet filling food you can found at Sweden, 10 Sek for a burger.

12:32

We reached Stockholm and will be taking the night flight back to Glasgow, which means we have time to spend at the capital of Sweden - Stockholm.

Never do any research before coming, so just snap picture that i think is nice. See the building behind? must be some old, memorable building for the locals, wise choice taking it, huh....

The street behind is full of shops selling all sort of souvenir, just the right place for souvenir hunter like us.

There will be always a guard standing in front of "some" building....

A shop selling full of Christmas stuff

Stockholm night skyline

Here goes the end of my Sweden journey, and it inspired me alot and it's really a whole new experience that i had never dream of, it's the COOLEST place i had ever been to and it deserve a rating of 11 /10.... the maths are wrong but it's right in the sense of description.

Kiruna 3

2008-01-01T08:56:00.000-08:00

08:00

After having a quick breakfast, and equipped ourself with the ski, boots and poles, we went to the river bank and had our 1st and ever cross country skiing. And again, the view over the river bank is awesome....!!!

Breakfast - butter, marmalade, honung (honey), cheese and bread

Poles and ski to be pick

Snow, ice, river, snow mountain......

Leg half sink

Skiing in a flat surface is hard, because there is zero driving force, but that's the 1st place to start for nooby like me...

This is how far we get, a wierd shape ice cube sitting there, seems like a place naturally build for resting.

"PatternING" what's the big deal with -6 celcius..

14:25

Time to leave, taking pictures of the lapp's place before we leave, nice place , nice experience. The way back is dark, cold, and wet, though it's only early evening, the place is dark and it's snowing, but smart husky dogs never let us down and we manage to reach to our destiny in one piece.

Traditional Lappish hut, too bad we don't have the chance to stay in

Another hut..... everything is worth taking with snow

See the "P" sign, this desingnate that it's a place for us to pee. Not bad huh, a good view a head, it gets better when it is at night when the wind blow... pee in the cold..! too bad the girls don't have the chance to try this, for those with "stick" only..

Unzip, Aim, and let's do business..!

PatternING... ice hockey

Can you see dog sled, dog, the path and a guy? Ofcourse you can't, if not you'll be a husky instead. This is how good their eye side are....

18:06

At kiruna city, the reason is because the lame tourguide who promise to send us to the hut we will be staying for the night wanted to buy a christmas gift for his kid before sending us there... Though lame, seems to be a good dad to me. Anyway we are given 30 minutes to tour around, and it's a small city full of chrismas atmosphere i must say.

Kiruna City

The hut that we are staying, it's a 9 person banglo i should say and it is build of wood by the owner, and the owner is actually Life - the tourguide for the northern light trip.

kiruna 2

2007-12-30T18:44:00.000-08:00

07:00

We were awaken with a hot lingonberries juice by the ice hotel staff, exactly the time we ask them to give us a morning call. An early start for today for we had to checked out at 8:45 to join a tour to the lapps' place, where the sammi lives (the local ethnic group there). In order to reach to the lapps' place, we have to either choose to drive an ice mobile or ride a dog sled. I tried both and seriously, dog sled is much more fun, but it take some 'weight' to control the husky dog, as the only way to control the dogs is only a brake and to stop them, we have to apply weight on the brake. Hard to imagine such small dog can act have that much power to transfer us to such far places. Every 8 to 10 minutes, we will have to stop for a few minutes in order to let the dogs to cool down, the dogs will start eating ice and turning around the ice in order to cool themself down during their break time

Preparing for take off, i have to be on the brake to avoid the dog goes off without us....

Small but strong

Smart dog that knows their route, notice the guy infront, he felt after momment, ended up chasing the sled, luckily he is a good runner, manage to get back on the sled....

All excited with the snow

Time out after a snow ball fight....

1:21

We found our self at the river bank and the lapps' hut is just across the river up the small hill. The view is really magic, snow, partially frozen river, snowy mountain, and the moon (hanging up high even it is in the evening). Natural can be this nice, how can human stupid enough to let money and global warming to destroy this scene, but parodoxically, only money can get me here.. Can't there be a balance?

Man , this is owesome....!

Crossing the river with 16 of us in the wee boat, and that tour guide really "qian bian" ask us to pull him up the shore while he sits in the boat....

Tour guide explaing the place and we found out that he tell the same lame joke to every batch of visitor he brought.... Lame...!

Modern lappish hut that we stays in, all furnish with wood, making it warm and cosy.

Wood sawing and choppind area forthe BBQ and Sauna

Kitchen

Reindeer meat with pasta

BBQ Dinner

our source of water is this river that we cross over, the moon is shinning instead of the sun that evening

Collecting water from the hole at the frozen part of the river.

Kiruna 1

2007-12-30T09:09:00.000-08:00

Kiruna - a place i'll never forget, a place i'd never imagine i'll have the chance to visit, the coolest place ever.... A group of six, suz jian, qristine, pei fong, yi shan, wei meng and me start our journey right after our DDS exam, though juz slept for 1 and a half hour last night, the adrenaline rush cause by excitement keep me going. We took a night plane from glasgow to stockholm (which is the capital of sweden), planning to spend our night at the citycentre bus station due to the tight budget, but found ourself wandering outsite the bus station because the station doesn't operate 24 hours. Can't bare with the cold weathere which is -4 celcius, we went to a kebab restaurant for shelter and had some food while waitng for our bus to Arlanda airport where we spend our night there.....

Stockholm Arlanda airport

Found a nice spot to sleep, with christmas tree beside

SAS plane to kiruna . . .

14:00

After 1 and a half hour of flight, we reached Kiruna airport, which gives a strong christmas atmosphere for the airport is painted in red and there is snow everywhere. Due to 1st time encountering snow, i'm all excited and nearly slip when walk towards the airport from the plane.

Kiruna airport

Cool welcome sign in ice

Escort by the ice hotel staff who looks like"cystal maiden" in warcraft and were send there by this bus

16:00

What lies infront of my eye is astonishing, it's just so unbelievable "COOL".... So this is how the ice hotel looks like. After checking in, we spend some time touring around the place and were given some tips of staying in the cold room, have some idea of how the ice is transfer from the river Torne nearby . Though the ice hotel is smaller and more simpler than i immagine (different form what we seen in one of the episonde of James Bond), i'm really amaze on how they build a hotel with ice. In the design suit, every room had it's own theme and were design with ice sculpture. The bed is also made of ice with a reindeer skin lying on top of it. We are provided with a blue sleeping beg where we can stay warm sleeping in it.

What can i say, COOL ....! Ice Hotel

A photo taken form inside, note that there is chrismas tree outsite.

Gateway into the ice room

Design suit

Thanks for the tips, i know that pillow is definitely for sleeping

Ice bowl

Ice Chair

18:00

After satisfying with taking pictures around ice hotel, we prepare ourself for the Northern light trip organised by Camp Alta, where we are suppose to drive the snow mobile through fozen lake and forest to a hill call Aptasvaara, where we have a high chance of having a clear view of the Northern light. Ironically, we didn't get to see it up the hill but on the way to the hill. It looks like a green smoke which change it's pattern ramdomly and slowly dissapear in sight after some time. The way towards Aptasvaara is adventurous and challenging one as the tourguide told us the bad weathere yesterday has cause the path to become uneven and bumpy. We drove to a camp site after reaching Aptasvaara where we sit around the fire and had a wee chat with coffee and some snacks....

Snow Mobile

Northern Light ... !

Camp fire

Exhausted after the ride with suz jian and qritine

Sweden gang with the tour guide, Life

11.46

Get back to the ice hotel and took a hot bath not following the advice of keeping our body natural oil as an insulator. After that, it's time for a drink, we went in to the absolute ice bar in the ice hotel, where our drink is serve in ice not with ice, the container itself is ice instead of glass. Ordered a blue drink, it's defenitely chilled, but the portion is too little. That's the last place we spend before we get our sleeping bag from the reception and headed to our own ice room.

Craving for a drink

Absolute Ice Bar

Cheers...!

Absolute Vodka vanila + Blue syrup + soda +...... +..............

Ice Room

Sleeping bag

Revived...!

2007-11-06T13:41:00.000-08:00

My computer had revived after the graphic card fried a few days ago. Since it is still under warranty, so i called the HP centre and they send the courier guy to pick up my laptop. Found out that it'll take days to deliver it to the factory and the HP centre told me me it might take 7-10 working days to fix my laptop... I was like 10 days plus a few days of travelling, i'm in dip shit, so many days without my laptop which is the gadget for my sole leisure time (not to say sole, but 90% of my entertainment is from my laptop). But in contrast, i got back my laptop with a new motherboard six day after, 2 thumbs up for HP. Some how i got too much of time during the 6 days that i remembered and realize alot of stuff i've set to do at UK. One of it is to jot down interesting days i had during the whole year at this blog..... We do always take things for granted, and not realising the important of small little things in life untill it is gone, not everyting can be replace and revived.... Cheerish everyting , every momment.

Layers of protection in a big box containing my laptop.

In the same day at night, went to Glasgow green for the musical fireworks. Not quite sure what it is for, some says it's related to rememberance of vandeta, some says it's due to 2014 Commonwealth Games since glasgow is one of the candidate city, but anyway i'm too lazy to find out the truth.

Things seems to repeat itself again and again, is my life recycling, when can i get out of the loop. There is still alot to learn.....

Gloomy

2007-09-16T07:42:00.000-07:00

The atmosphere is real gloomy after the result being revealed yesterday and it had gone even worst in addition with the rain that start pouring since yesterday night. It's a big turning point after a happy and fantastic journey at Germany and Czech. Being spare for just 2 weeks after the degree exam, reality steps in and here i am back at square 1. Recalling back those torturing days that i had gone through, piss me off even more. I believe every single of us had work so hard for it but the result just gone hay wired.

Oh well, nothing can be undo now, since do my best doesn't works last time, i can only do better than my best the next exam and hope everyone of us can go through this time......

A New Start

2007-07-10T08:54:00.000-07:00

With all the wishes, support, faith, love and hope, i've started my journey to a place that i hope to find something in life. Glasgow - My New Start....

Flying to my destiny.

Another hour before flying to glasgow....

University of Strathclyde.

My tiny room... Got the smallest of all, but it's still ok, manage to stuck all my stuff in appropriate cupboard and the room is warmer than others though.

Westend festival... Have the chance to join one of their celebration on the 2nd week. Morever getta met two of my sis's friends and one of them is actuarlly my senior and i only know it after 2 and a half year. The world is so small.

Lectures are boring and in a marathon style with only 1 hour break in between. Peoples are taking turns to sleep like nobody business, lecture hall suddenly become a big loch which we start "fishing".

Every week's chores is to get our supply of food, carrying tons of it and walking back through the "longest yard"...

Another skill to survie here is cooking. Not bad la, all house mates know how to cook...

Hoot day, our class still maintain the spirits of dresscode day at IMU...

Celebrating Sjian's birthday at an Irish bar.

Hanging out at George Square after everyone had finish the PP3 classtest, we are determine to pass our PP3 and be a profesional Pharmacist...!!!

Whoo... i've been here at Glasgow for a month, it's like i've just reach here and suddenly one month pass by, many things happened, and everything seems to be very new, new enviroment, new room, new university, new streets, new housemates, and new weather ofcourse. Hope they will be a new me too soon...

Symbol of Letting Go

2007-05-23T10:52:00.000-07:00

Long time nvr shop with my mom and td is like once in a blue moon and since I’m going UK soon, it’s time to spend some time with my mom and of coz to buy the essentials and one of it is my luggage!!! 13 DAYS to go but I still haven’t get it, but I’m not the only 1 though..haha. After surveying all the shops, I left to decide among 2 bags…

The 1st is a 28 inch, fancy small blue and white small格子(forget the term) luggage bag with more compartments and with extra space which can be so “magically” added up by juz 1 zip. Another is a simple 28 inch black luggage bag.( yup tat simple). One cost RM 150 and the latter is RM100. Frankly, I like the 1st one much more, but it cost an extra of the half of the 2nd bag and figures started to spin with formula and factors of material, outfit, space, worth, and like. Oh well, at last surprisingly, I choose the 2nd bag, which I normally will juz pick the 1st one and ask myself, how can I afford it? ok, I will go find a part time job, or I’ll buy chi pa lak brand shoe instead of nike dunk, or drink sky juice nxt time instead of tat “ A wind of the beach” or “ blue wisdom” ( nice name for soda and smoothies huh). But this time I didn’t do so. Remind me of what I’ve study in secondary English class, “ The Road Not Taken” (wow, I act getta remember what I’ve learn so long ago). I’ve taken a different choice. Maybe “liong sam” got inflammation that’s why dun wanna spend so much of parents’ money.

My mind is kinda empty after my mom made the payment, but slowly it started to feel good. Hmmn… I’m kinda stubborn with things that I like and love, peoples say I’m so “yim jim” and 执着. I think sometimes we do have to learn to let go, let go of what we like, we love for the ones that we love.

It is a simple black luggage bag, and the symbol of letting go...

My luggage bag

花

2007-04-29T12:35:00.000-07:00

不知不绝我的大学身涯就已经过了大半段，回头看一切好像才开始却已剩最后几步了。前面是一片茫茫大海，越过了大海就是我另一个起点。那儿的六月应该是进入万花盛放的夏天吧。但是原来种花并非一件简单的事情，是需要耐心，恒心和用心去培殖。曾经以为只要有恒心就可以开花结果，一心想尽快把花种好，希望生了根可以经得起风吹雨打，却领悟自己就算有恒心，缺乏了经验与技巧一样种不了花。最后更发现，原来我这泥只是一片烂泥，就算多努力烂泥始终是烂泥，根本种不了花。太天真了。

人虽身为万物之灵，但是有时知道什么是应该做的，却偏偏不去做，做不了。。。明知快餐对身体有害，还是吃了。明知前方是死路，却闯了进去，不跌个头破血流都不甘心。知足常乐这道理我晓得，但我又能办到多少呢。好累了。。。

My 1st blog

2007-04-20T05:12:00.000-07:00

This is my 1st blog, like every 1st time i dun really know what i'm doing now.. haha. Juz bought my new laptop which one of the reason why i'm able to type and start a blog now. Felt more free now, dun have to share comp and wait for my turn, no more loggin in to guest's account and get annoyed by the "pls loggin to administrator account if..." , no more nagging for my turn and i act can choose my own background and cursors, my style... (no complaining here, coz i do get to use sis and dad's comp, in fact stuck all my songs into sis comp too, hmmn it's time to transfer, i think sis comp left few MB nia..lolz)

It's time to get connected dy, DC for so long, dunno wat is happening on the other site of the screen. Gonna fully utilize my laptop, spend a fortune on it, so broke... Spend a lot of time on it recently infact, spending most of my time inside my room with my new gadget, felt a surge of i'm connected with the world at first, but then after a few days like get DC with what is around and the closest instead...Balance, balance...